comfortable

i'm starting to feel old...okay maybe not old so much as that i'm slowing down (and it's not just the metabolism). i can't stay up much past 11:30 these days (i can't remember the last snl episode i saw that wasn't online). a pint (about all i can handle anymore) makes me feel lightheaded. people's names are getting more difficult to remember by the day. (i wonder how much of it is early onset). 

or wait, am i slowing down? or am i settling? i've hit the 5 year mark in this city, and the 1 year mark at my job, which is a long time for me (and decades in the online world). i've grown comfortable, content even. all this makes me terrified i'll lose my sense of adventure, my restlessness, my 'ready to go at any moment' belief in myself. i have to hang on to that as fiercely as possible. 

which is why i'm going to spend thanksgiving in iceland.