on the edge

...of a nervous breakthrough. i keep reminding myself that i'm at a crossroads, not a crisis.

earlier last month, i was:

1) getting ready for a move to sf

2) posting my belongings on craigslist

3) packing up books and clothes and sending them to california

4) trying to get rid of everything else i owned

fast forward a few weeks. now here i was:

1a) postponing my move (or possibly not moving at all)

2a) deleting my craigslist postings and disappointing some potential buyers

3a) putting a screeching halt to packing and hiding boxes in the closet

4a) wondering if i really should have been so quick to give away my dvd player

i wish i had superpowers....like shouldn't this store sell some "decision making" powder or something? or some "what i should do with my life" serum. nope. not in stock.

but along the way (to somewhere, i hope), i've gotten some good advice. a friend passed on her dad's wisdom, and according to her dad, here are the three questions you should ask yourself when choosing a career/job:

1) what are you good at?

2) what do you enjoy?

3) how can you help other people?

and another friend shared this amazing quote (re: vocation):

"the place God calls you to is where your deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet"

--frederick buechner